I DEDICATE MY RANTINGS AND THOUGHTS TO MY INSPIRATIONAL HEART OF HEARTS, MR. STEPHEN T., THE ONE WHO ALWAYS BELIEVED IN ME EVEN WHEN NO ONE ELSE DID, AND ALSO TO HIS VERY MAGICAL, MARVELOUS DAUGHTERS WHO SOMEHOW TOUCHED MY SPIRIT AND HAVE INDEED MOVED ME TO ACTION. I THANK THEM ALL.

SO, THIS IS A STORY THAT IS THE TRUTH AS I BEST KNOW IT AND BELIEVE IT TO BE. SOME PEOPLE WILL NOT THINK IT SO, AND I SAY TO THEM O.K.

I PAROLED FROM PRISON IN MAY AND I WAS READY, WILLING AND ABLE TO NOT ONLY CHANGE MY LIFE AND MY THINKING. I WAS GOING TO GO TO WHATEVER LENGTHS IT TOOK TO ACHIEVE THIS GOAL. YOU SEE, THIS WAS MY SECOND TRIP TO PRISON, AND WHEN I GOT THOSE HANDCUFFS SLAPPED ONTO MY WRISTS I KNEW, WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING, THAT I HAD HIT MY ABSOLUTE BOTTOM.

I GOT TO COUNTY JAIL, KNOWING THAT BECAUSE OF THE CHOICES I HAD MADE I HAD PRETTY MUCH LOST MY FAMILY, FRIENDS AND ANY ONE WHO HAD ANY FAITH IN ME.